modern hip-hop and the amateur porn video.

i've been watching a great deal of pornography the past day or so, and believe this or don't, but i didn't jerk off to any of it.

i'm trying to get back to a simpler time when i was younger and part of the excitement building up to climax, was just watching and getting turned on.

when i do have alone time, which is rarely, i can close my eyes, and rub one out within two to three minutes, only to be let down by a lackluster, quick orgasm... i'm trying to train myself to go longer and enjoy it. when i'm with a woman, no problem. it's like a fucking floodgate was bust open...

i'm a fan of amateur porn. mostly, i've been watching these webcam vids, of college girls doing strip teases, nothing more, to modern hip-hop music. i'm not looking for the hip-hop mind you, it just happens that every girl who decides to dance nude in front of her webcam, put on shitty music... naturally i lower the volume and pretend that they're talking really dirty, seeing how i'm turned on by dirty talk, but somewhere along the line, i picture the girl saying:

"oh yeah, you like that... oh yes... i'm so wet... ummm... i have to go doodie..."

...and then... i just start to laugh.