there is no place to hide.

the ladytron remix of nin's, "the beginning of the end," throws out a downward spiral tribute at the end...

this has been a really enjoyable day so far. it's the beginning of bob and mines five day, paid, thanksgiving weekend from work. we've spent the day trying to get higher xbox live scores than one another, off and on, and bob will win with, of all games, "king kong." i'm still striving for the mongoose mowdown achievement on, "halo 3."

i did get the wii zapper with link's crossbow training, thanks to dvd trade-ins... and... i don't like it.

no matter which hand you use, the thing is too compact to be fully appreciated. it's got a weird delay response to your actual movement, and leaves me feeling cheated once again by the new era of nintendo.

the link game's not bad, but all it is, is glorified target practice in different settings and forms.

i will try the zapper on, "resident evil: umbrella chronicles," once i obtain it from byran, but so far, the wii has yet to really impress me.

i really loathed the mario galaxy demo i played.

the 360 just kicks ass. i can't push that system enough. from now until the next, next-gen console, i will continue to celebrate the 360 from a pedestal as high as god's gracious, golden throne.

thanksgiving tomorrow at j boo-boo's. turkey, ham, sweet potato casserole, apple pie, and after dinner, late night games of cornhole, kinda like bean bag tic-tac-toe, and beer. should be a gas.

black friday. i have zero money, but i may tap into my safety savings to get a few things from best buy and circuit city. mainly, "rocky balboa," for four bucks, and, "bust-a-move," on psp for three.

"touching without touching, candles in the dark
casting shadows on our parents battles, this is for the romantics at heart
it wasn't long before i held you more then my pen
when i wasn't writing songs, it was something like,
'Forever and always, whenever those songs play...'"

-sage francis.

i've been in one of those hazy moments, that seems to skip on the stroke of every second in the day... women... a woman. thee woman?...

i was feeling pretty content and felt as though i felt used to being by myself... and now... i'm not sure.

there's of part of me that is apprehensive, and on the same note... pensive...

pen·sive
–adjective

1. dreamily or wistfully thoughtful: a pensive mood.
2. expressing or revealing thoughtfulness, usually marked by some sadness: a pensive adagio.

yeah... it fits.

"the night is falling, thank god, i hear the calling of the skeletons under the sun..."

i'm making efforts in life. taking steps, and i'm incredibly nervous and weird about them all.


i'm still in love with you.

i've decreed it that i will now post my xbox live achievements profile at the top of each blog to gloat in my meager, but higher that some, score. booyah!

i forgot to share something a month ago with everyone... this is my new favorite food...



that being said, let's move onto a topic concerning the psp.

i traded my video camera a few years back to my brother for his psp. he never used it, and i never used my video camera, so it made sense to do the swap considering we'd both utilize each other's items far more than our own.

however, my only need for the playstation portable was that of a little game called, "grand theft auto: liberty city stories."

when i got the GTA game, i was more than a little sore with it. not with the story by any means, but the lack of a directional pad to be used as an alternate for driving vehicles.

see, i have this thing about the playstation analog stick, as well as the psp's analog nub... i hate them. unless i'm moving my character physically, i don't want it. especially not to drive with.

the driving in grand theft auto is so linear sometimes, that it's a much smoother ride with the directional pad. easier to control, easier to maneuver.

needless to say, i rid myself of the game and awaited it's port arrival on the playstation 2, which was nothing short of the joy i've come to excpect from the GTA saga.

over the next year or so, the only other game that interested me enough to pick-up was, "splinter cell: essentials."

it's a great game, with decent controls, albeit clunky sometimes, but very fair overall.

after that, the psp laid dormant for a long while.

cue to last night around five-ish...



OH... WOW...

the only real, "silent hill," game i really didn't agree with too much, was the second one, but even that wasn't a complete loss.

but this one... origins... the prequel that takes place right before the first PSone game... it's more than satisfying if you're a hardcore, "silent hill," fan like i am...

not only do you get to see familiar faces from the series, but remember how i mentioned that in a review i read, they said that the company found a way to ghost in the movie plot... it's the little girl from the film.

for a handheld, it's incredible to look at the lush environments, whether in the real world setting, or when you advance through mirrors to the terror side.

my only complaint is the same as the reviews i've read. the combat system is one button mashing. one button being, "X," and it's pretty consistent of just locking onto enemies and hitting them over and over until they fall. that's the game's only real downfall...

other than that, my weekend is set.

handstands in moderation.

i've been wanting to write something for the past week, and every time i try, i get bored almost immediately, and delete what i wrote, and go about my day.

i've been enjoying the fifty to sixty degree mornings we've been having, followed by the nice, breezy seventies afternoon weather.

i'm in the process of playing, "the simpsons game," on the 360. i'm 47% through it, and to be honest, it's really quite a remarkable game at times, and at others, incredibly repetitive.

it's no surprise that my two least favorite characters on the show, marge and lisa, are my two least favorite characters to deal with in the game, and unfortunately, you don't have a choice on whether or not you wish to use them. certain levels come equipped with them.

i'm going to pick up, "silent hill: origins," on psp today. i had it pre-ordered a while back, and i can't wait to plug in my sony headphones, turn out the lights, and play the prequel that ties the entire series together, while ghosting the movie plot in. i've read nothing but stellar reviews for this game, with the only gripe being the combat system, which is nothing surprising, because all silent hill's have had poor combat, but the eerie tone, music, and story are what's been the drive behind me playing the series to no end.

to this day, "silent hill," on playstation one ranks in my top five all-time favorite games, with, "legend of zelda: ocarina of time," never budging from the number one spot...

last nights, "the office," like it's previous six episodes, left me sour in the jawline.

i don't like how this season is being written, which surprises me seeing as how b.j. novak, mindy kaling, and steve carell have all written episodes so far in this season.

i really don't like the direction it's going either. almost as if this season is like, "fuck you, we had a good three season run prior, and now, let's burn this motherfucker to the ground..."

it's friday. no complaints there. if i can make it through the next week and two days, i'll be on a five day sabbatical for thanksgiving in which i'm going over to j-boo boo's house to eat lots of good, homecooked food, and hang with his wife, mom, and kids... and yes, puddin' is going with me dressed as a turkey. pictures to follow...

"i wish i was beautiful..."

i've been really enjoying the, "counting crows," lately. anything by them really is pretty amazing...

so, fox announced it. next year... X-FILES 2! anderson and duchovny have signed on! FUCKING SWEET!

it's friday and tonight, bob and i are going to crack, "gears of war," co-op on hardcore, now that he has his own modem in his room... nice.

i love the weekends.

AND... the weather! it's supposed to be... 57 TOMORROW! FUCKINSWEET!

"hear your voices sing back louder..."

i began writing a blog this morning when i was drunk on molson gold, listening to the depressive instrumental riffs of, "this will destroy you," and thinking about julie, because, as much as i don't want to be honest on this topic, lately, i can't get her off my mind. the what-ifs and all that. i miss her. and even though for the most part i feel content being alone... i don't.

...then, later in the day, after passing out, i woke up, groggy. i got a bottle of water, and gulped it down, hydrating myself, and proceeded to get my hands on the new, "angels and airwaves." and i cheered up, because, and i'm not sure if it's tom delonge's intention, but, he makes music that just infuses the feeling of hope.

i really didn't care for, "AVA's," first album, "we don't need to whisper," but i really enjoy, "I-Empire." it's incredible, and just reminds me of old 80's movies like, "real genius," with val kilmer... and don't try to figure that statement out, because i can't either. it just has that feeling...

bryan and bridget, if you read this blog still: brokencopy@yahoo.com is my email, i can't find your phone number, and i want to get together. email me.

this productive weekend saw me watch through some episodes of, "scrubs," season four, and... I CARVED A PUMPKIN! target is the best store ever and had big pumpkins on sale for a buck and half... check out my new oh face... i call him dewey...

second life. half-life. no life.

yes, i took a big boy step, and deleted the myspace account! people may ask, "why?"... because i've hated myspace for a long time, and have just been too lazy to get rid of it until recently.

i've been depressed a lot more these days. my work more than anything is what does it for me...

last night, i beat, "half-life 2," the orange box edition, and unlocked most of it's achievements, with the exception of a petty few.

it always feels good to accomplish something.

i began, "half-life 2: episode one," as soon as the credits finished rolling on the regular game, and you know what...? i love episode one.

it picks up, minutes after the ending of two. directly, and you play as freeman. which is odd because i thought this game was a focus on alex, but, whatever... it's awesome.

after watching the newest episode of, "the office," last night, i signed up and downloaded, "second life."

now, i love the concept of a virtual world that is really a virtual world to escape to. i love that they don't consider it a game. however, i need someone to help me get my computer to run it faster.

i can bring it all up, but it's super slow, and i don't know shit about upgrading computers for games, or in this case, my virtual world app... any help?

also, as much as i was hyping it, i have to be honest... I HATE THE NEW COHEED AND CAMBRIA ALBUM! i've never been so disappointed in a band...

"let your rabbit go run..."

for the past week, i've been out sick from work, which i'm sure i'll catch heat for when i go back on monday.

the doctor told me i have a really bad sinus infection, which explains the massive, week long migraine, raw throat, and the right side nostril that's caked in a bloody-puss like sore.

he gave me amoxicilan, and this nasal spray that feels as though some scientists created a mist version of salt, that you gingerly whiff and immediately cry in pain as the burning sensation ravages the sore inside of your nasal cavity. my head by the way, still hurts. this is the worse migraine, and certainly the longest one i've ever had... my previous record was four days straight. it's the kind of pain where when you sit up, it feels like jackhammers are pressing your brain down really hard, over and over... it's bad.

the only real treat i've had this past week, is yesterday, the new coheed and cambria album i pre-ordered a month ago, came, five days before street date, with the bonus dvd, and t-shirt, and, i was able to have a good fellow pick me up a nice, subway club sub.

i've, as of late, have gotten addicted to subway.

now, true, there are better sub shops around, like jersey mike's, englund's deli, and publix deli, but i have a subway located right in front of my house more or less, and it's cheap, and the double meat club on whole wheat... well that's all right with me...

the best sub i ever had was from a place in milwaukee, wisconsin, that my friend seth introduced me to, called, "jimmie john's."

i've since ate at one in detroit which is equally as good, and one in tallahassee, which is not so good.

being a fat guy, i'm really big on subs... and taco bell. i love me some taco bell.

"you've got nothing to prove... stay afraid...."

i called off work for the third day in a row. i feel like crap, and will force myself back tomorrow regardless. i have since decided i won't be going to orlando as planned this weekend. which is a bummer, but, my health is priority numero uno.

i got stuck while playing, "portal," and discovered: gamevideos.com, and found a detailed video of the level i'm stuck on and how to get through it, and was really impressed at how far visual, video help guides have come... of course the downside to this is the site told me that i only have three more levels to get through and i'm done with the game, which took some of the fun out of it, but, if you've ever played, "portal," you would've understood why i had to look it up.

i'm also a little bit disenchanted with the achievements system on, "half-life 2," for the simple fact that when i had to go through the ravenholm section, under the achievements list, it said if i made it through ravenholm only using my gravity gun, that i would unlock 25G's. guess what, no it didn't!

still, despite the few minor complaints, i'm happy overall with the orange box still. ... i'm going back to bed.

the sickies.

so, i took off work yesterday and today... i feel sick. headcold, bad. i know exactly what it's from, and i'm gonna nip this shit in the bud... nyquil, motrin, and orange juice are my only allies now...

and look what i found at the header of yahoo news today...



yeah, blame, "halo 3," and not the shitty idea to remake a bad movie.

whattaweekend!!!

this weekend was the first in a good, long while, that i really enjoyed myself, and am sad to see myself go back to work.

normally, by sunday night around six, i'm ready to get back to work because i'm bored, but not this weekend.

it was a good mix of gaming, reading, and "my name is earl," season two.

they re-opened the papa john's that used to be down the road three years ago, finally, and what's more, they re-opened it closer to my house. i now have a papa john's within five minute walking distance. it reminded me of what it was like when the ghostbusters made a comeback...

and that pizza... if i had sit in with jesus at the last supper, it's what i imagined he'd be chomping down on... so good.

also, the coheed and cambria leaked, i listened to it once so i can be prepared for the actual release, but i can tell you from my one through, i don't like the last track. for the ending of the coheed and cambria saga, you'd think they go out on more an epic note like they did with, "the final cut."

aside from that, it has a more metal feel, reminiscent of, "iron maiden."

read through two books this weekend, so i feel smarter now.

i've been playing a healthy dose of, "half-life 2," which i had forgotten how much i loved that game, and, "portal." i know, i know. i retract previous, negative statements about, "portal." it does, pardon the pun, suck you in, after a bit of play.

oh, by the way, check out: how it should have ended dot com.

the ainbow unoection aye.

the following video kills me every time i watch it on the season three dvd so much, that i had to share it with you.

it's andy and pam from, "the office," and andy is trying to serenade pam. it's so fucking funny for some reason... i love how at the end, jim, john krasinski, breaks character. it's lights me up with blubbery delight...

i'll devote a tribute week to you, VALVe, when i'm in heaven.

the orange box. three words, across the spine of the 360 case. the orange box. five games, one box. it's almost enough to make a grown man weep. for sixty bucks, you get five, quality games. the orange box... the new, digital bible... because after playing this disc... it becomes clear to me, that only god could have created such a glorious thing...



if you never played the first, "half-life," you're not missing much, but, if you've never played, "half-life 2," then you must have been living under a rock.

i shouldn't have to go into specifics on how good, "half-life 2," is... it just is.

i have yet to play episode one or two, the expansions for, "half-life 2," but have read reviews that were nothing short of spectacular.

i will replay through the game before i venture into the episodes.

"portal," is not a game that interested me when i read about it, and after spending twenty minutes playing it, it's apparent that for me personally, it's just as uninteresting as it was when i read it. a very odd sci-fi puzzle based game. the only cool thing i can say, is mike patton did voiceover work for it. and that's it. although i know a lot of cats who do dig the game...



the fucking motherload of online multiplayer games. i refuse to write a big, gushing review for this game, because i shouldn't have to. the game is phenomenal. all the things you read about it are true. it's that good.

to give a reference point, the only two gripes i have with the game.

1. capture the flag is only playable on one of the six maps, and after a while, the same map gets repetitive.

2. the rapid decline of health... it seems like one mere shot nearly drains you of fifty percent of your health, making you become a craftier player, but still, death can occur more often because of this flaw.

but other than that, the games fucking out there and insane.

overall, for sixty bucks, "the orange box," is easily one of the smarter decisions i've made in videogame purchasing. i think my next will be, "the simpsons game," and while i'm not a fan of the show, that lard lad demo is so genuinely fun, it makes me giggle every time i play through it.

and on a brighter note, the florida lotto tonight is up to $25 million... if i don't win, i plan on getting the hellman's mayonnaise blue ribbon logo tattooed on me, and will see if i can't parlay a spokesperson deal with them... "fat people love mayonnaise, and that mayonnaise is hellman's..."

"there's no world for tomorrow, if we wait for today..."

i got this email today from none other than santa...



go figure...

in other news, i have never been so anxious for a record to get released/leaked like i am with:



i have literally downloaded ever bit of samples/leaked live tracks from this album and i am go fucking insane waiting for this album.

i know a lot of people don't really dig, "coheed and cambria," but the whole story, the sci-fi element, the overall concept is what drives me. it's like my version of a new star wars, which might not make much sense to most, but it's the only way i can really describe how i feel towards the whole saga of the band and the concept.

of course i love them... i did get a the keywork tattooed on my leg...

"heroes," impressed the hell out of me last night. i really love the direction they're going with peter.

"weeds," was awesome as always.

also, if you have the chance, and are online with xbox live, download, "the simpsons game," demo. it's hard, but insanely good... "conan," on the other hand really let me down... it's nothing more than a, "god of war," variation with conan.

"i like my jesus to wear a tuxedo shirt, cause i like to party, and i like my jesus to like to party..."

it's funny how i look forward to the weekends after that first monday at work, and then by sunday, i, for some reason, can't wait to get back to work...

i think it has to do with bordem. i can only watch so many dvds, and play so many videogames. i sleep a lot on sundays come to think of it.

last night, i went to fye, and traded in a bunch of dvd's that i had gotten as gifts from an ex-girlfriend a few years back, and picked up, "fantastic four and the rise of the silver surfer: power cosmic edition." i don't care what is said, i liked this movie. it was good.

i also stopped at walmart and bought some new white t-shirts for work, and ended up liking the way they felt, nice and airy, that i got a few extras and am wearing them exclusively.

also, i am convinced i'm addicted to campbell's chunky roadhouse chili.

my new favorite song is HOME by the, "foo fighters." so much so in fact that i took a photo from the back porch when it was raining, and put the lyrics over it...



also, "my name is earl," season one is so worth the seventeen bucks BJ's is charging.

oh yeah, got another job. i'm back working for tim at the tv center. five days a week, two hours a night, boxing stuff to ship. i haven't started yet, but will soon. don't ask.

"it's time for the curing..."

i never thought in a million years, in the country i live in, which is supposed to be the land of the free mind you, that i would read an article about another human losing their job over their personal blog, let alone their employer being nintendo... nintendo fires employee over blog.

in other news, a few things to dump off at the mouth about.

first... last night's episode of, "the office."

i was more than happy with this episode making up for the bad season premier.

it was a classic, "office," feel intertwined with a new, "office," plot. and what's more, is what they did with creed's character... this...



let's break it down for those who missed it...

basically, dunder mifflen has decided to come into the technological age with a website, and a complete overall for a new age.

upon hearing this, creed figures that him and a few other of the elder people there are screwed, so he dyes his hair, and goes into youth oriented dialog i haven't heard since pauly shore?

best scene:



to ryan:

"hey, whatta we gotta do to get some redbull in this machine? sometimes a dude's gotta ride the bull, am i right on bro, or what?"

off onto, "smallville," season seven, episode two.

...so, kara ala supergirl is the focus... so... alien's just automatically come quipped with fake tits and wonderbras? and what's with those cheekbones? massive... story, weak sauce.

tim burton's trailer for his upcoming, "sweeny todd, the demon barber of fleet street," didn't surprise me in the fact that... i knew it was gonna look like a shitty, faggy, goth movie... how that long haired creep has a cult following is beyond me... sure, i'll give him credit, pee wee's big adventure, and the first two batman's were good, but... that's about as far as i'm willing to go...

the gulf coast regal cinemas this month will be showing flashback movies.

two of those films i have to see are, "the breakfast club," and the most important, "national lampoon's animal house." i'm there.

and now... let the weekend begin. only four more days until the orange box comes out, and then i can rock, "team fortress 2," on the 360!

20 years younger, or 20 years uglier...?

i've been trying to come up with something to say for the past few days. just as i begin a sentence, i'm immediately disgusted, and follow that feeling with the delete key.

i went to the memorial service for the father of a friend of mine. it was pretty massive in the aspect of volume in people. it was almost like a convention. i've never seen so many people in one room for a memorial. it spoke miles of the mans character, and made me wish i would have gotten a chance to know him on a more personal level.

life for me has been pretty... stale?

yesterday, around noon i sat in a hess parking lot in my work truck. i started weeping with regrets as to where i've ended up in my life. as i wept, i turned on the radio, while wiping away the liquid salt, and red hot chili peppers, "soul to squeeze," was playing, and for some reason, things made more sense.

sometimes i feel like this blogging thing is a waste of time. none of this seems interesting to me.

"i'm you... just a little more bizarre..."

the season premiere of, "the office," left me a little jaded.

i knew they weren't going to focus mainly on the jim and pam arc overall, even though they left the last season on a cliffhanger based on their, "date." but still, for as little of it as i saw last night, i felt let down.

and it suprised me even more when the colorfulness of dwight was somehow left dismissed. it was like a dwight schrute on quaalude's. he rarely had any lines, and when he did, it was in reference to the demise of his relationship with angela, and in no way funny.

kevin made me laugh here and there, but overall, the season premiere was a pretty big let down for me on a story level, as well as tipping the scale humor level.

i also get the feeling that with how big steve carrell is becoming as a star, and how the relationship of ryan howard taking over jan's old job, that it's entirely possible that steve's character will get axed, and the show won't be renewed for another season, which, honestly, wouldn't suprise me. the british version lasted two seasons. we're lucky we got to the fourth.

another season premier that kinda let me down was, "smallville."

i love the introduction of, "bizarro," but... to me, the biggest weakness in, "smallville," is the length of time, and improper pacing of story.

they always try to fit way too much into a forty minute set, and it tends to leave you going, "what the fuck? that makes no sense..."

i knew lana wasn't going to die, because, like my assumption, she staged her own death, and chloe, would be too risky of losing an audience to kill her off.

is the well tapped of good ideas? first, the ending of, "the sopranos," and now this...? cheesus...

boy with a coin.

i'm feeling pretty down. i really have no desire to go to work. i know i say that a lot, but i really don't want to today...

i sometimes wonder how long it'd take for the bank to freeze my assests if i just stopped going to work altogether, and the mortgage wasn't being funded...

came home last night, so tired, and numb, and by numb, i mean, just quietly depressed.

my head hung low for the remainder of the afternoon and evening. although i was lucky enough to just pass out around five something, and not wake up until four this morning.

i got up, fixed a glass of diet coke, chewed on a piece of jerky, and played, "fable," for the next two and half hours...

i can at least look forward to seeing the season premier of, "smallville," and finding out what happens with bizarro from last season, and of course, the introduction to kara, ala supergirl...

and, the main course, the season premier of my favorite show... "the office."

i also should be getting season two of, "upright citizens brigade," in the mail soon... how it slipped by me last week was beyond measures, but when i realized it had been released, i found it used on amazon for fourteen bucks and nabbed it, along with a sweet ebay win... all four penny arcade collections for ten bucks... score.

the 19th of october, i will be traveling to halloween horror nights with mr. jason womack, along with melissa and company... i do look forward to that.

and now... i have to go to work. pray i don't kill myself.